At first, I was in disbelief. I really was trying to figure out what I did wrong. I was really puzzled. This was the first time I had been rejected from a program...something I was not use to. After laying down for about an hour to take a nap (it was a lot to take in), I awoke and had to remind myself of the "I get to" attitude. Instead of looking at the situation as "I got to wait another year" I began to look at what the benefits of this situation are.
Here, it is. I honestly feel God is telling me to take a break for just a year, so I can better prepare myself. I feel God is also allowing me to rest and learn to better prepare for the undertaking of the degree. If I had been accepted, I would have had to begin the Ed.D. program the first week of June. I would have just graduated with my Master's in May. I also thought about what else God is probably doing...preparing me for something greater. The most important lesson from this though is...everything does not happen in our own timing, but God's. I will slowly prepare my application again and resubmit in January 2016. Also, I get the chance to now probably attend ISTE 2015 and do a couple of other things during the summer.
At the end of the day, some may say I am settling, but I feel that I am just having a chance to refine myself and get ready for something greater! Besides, just because one program did not want me at this particular moment, does not mean another does not. At the end of the day, how many people already having their own funding for their doctorate program in which is not loans and pretty much covered? Biggest moral of this story: I was delayed with the decision for this moment...I am on stand by mode...HOWEVER, I am not denied!